The last few weeks have been very hard, stressful weeks.
I was convinced my marriage was going to end. Being a SAHM, I was terrified. No job, no money to pay bills, nobody to help me…
My husband and I love each other. Really. But having a child with Reactive Attachment Disorder is brutal.
And this kid saves his most outrageous behavior for me. My husband doesn’t want to believe our kid would do some of the things he does. I get it. It is hard to believe. But he must believe me, or parenting won’t work. This is classic RAD, the manipulation of caregivers.
It has been hard. Communication difficult. Raw honesty, panic attacks, and breakdowns.
We want to be together. We need to work harder. We need to trust each other.
Our house feels like a prison. Cameras in bedrooms, total supervision. It isn’t how I want my life to be. But, we committed to this, and we need to figure it out.
Lots of apologies have happened.
Having no way to run saved our marriage. If I had a support system, of I had a job…I would have run.
I don’t want to leave my marriage. I just need things more calm. With RAD it is almost impossible. I don’t want to be a divorce statistic.
I am just tired. I feel like I am failing.